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What I’m Looking & Listening For

“Give thanks to God no matter what circumstances you find yourself in.” (1 Thessalonians 5:18a)

Can I be completely honest with you? Canadian Thanksgiving is coming on Monday, and while I am relieved and grateful for a long weekend . . . today I’m not feeling it. Holidays are supposed to bring warm fuzzy feelings, but sometimes we’re just too tired or frazzled or upset or sad to get in the spirit.

I’m not all of those things, although I’ve had a busy couple of weeks with frustratingly long hours of homework. My creative soul feels stifled. My to-do list doesn’t seem to be getting any shorter.

But that’s just it–thankfulness is not about feelings. In this social media age where all we see are the highlight reels of people’s lives, it’s easy to think everyone else is so much happier than we are. Yet neither life nor emotions are static; they’re constantly changing like the seasons. And the truth is that if I can find reasons to complain, I can find at least as many reasons to rejoice.

To remind myself, here’s a brief list. (Perhaps it will remind you, too, of the good things in life.)

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I have a wonderful, fun, supportive family who loves me.
I have friends checking in on me and praying for me.
I get to walk to school each day, enjoying the crisp air of autumn mornings.
I can still make money at my job despite going to school full-time.
There’s a stack of good books on my desk almost two feet high, all waiting to be read.
I’ve been in college only six weeks, and already I understand how to make an income statement, what factors change supply and demand, how to write memos, how to calculate equivalent payments of compound interest, all kinds of things that Microsoft Word can do, and how business is all about creating value for customers.
I have an amazing church that makes every Sunday morning feel like coming home.
I’m healthy.
I have opportunities every day to laugh.
Great movies are a thing.
So is good music, such as:
Reckless Love by Cory Asbury (a long one, but so, so good)
Deeper by SVRCINA (thanks to Katie Grace for introducing me to this singer)
Clap Your Hands by Owl City (it’s about golf? but it’s really fun)
Something in the Water by Tim Neufeld (this cover never fails to make me happy)
I Need Thee Every Hour by Anthem Lights (their entire Hymns album is so peaceful)
I haven’t run out of things to write about, and after a week of no writing, Snow White is waiting for me to pen the next part of her adventure.
I get to connect with faraway friends through the internet and snail mail.
The sun rises.
Seeing the full moon shining over the harvested fields makes me want to shut my car headlights off and stare for a while.
Watercolor pencils are magical.
So is pumpkin pie.
Dreams aren’t out of reach–I’m on my way, and you know, the days of small beginnings are actually exciting when I stop and climb to a new vantage point.
It’s sweater weather.
Tea. (What else needs to be said about that?)
The blue jays have returned.
Asking customers at work what their plans are for Thanksgiving transforms mediocre small talk into real conversations and real smiles.
Journaling late at night when my brain is tired and filters are down is relaxing.
God is there. Quietly faithful. The same today as He was yesterday. The same as He will be tomorrow.
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Sometimes we need to stop, breathe, and consciously think of all the things we have to be grateful for. And to be completely honest with you again–after writing this list, I feel a lot lighter. Happy Thanksgiving!


What are you thankful for today?

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Worth the Cross

Today we celebrate a cross and an empty tomb. A death and a resurrection. The darkest night of all, when the hope of the world seemed to be extinguished, gone forever . . . and the brightest morning ever beheld, when that Hope returned victorious.

We wear crosses around our necks and hang them from our cars’ rear-view mirrors. We sing about the empty tomb and the risen Savior, and these things are beautiful–truly. But I, for one, often forget the power behind these symbols and lyrics. I forget that Jesus went to the cross for me.

“For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:2

He surely had seen Roman crucifixions before–the excruciating pain of the lashing, the slow suffocation–and I’m sure He could well imagine the spiritual pain of bearing the sin of the entire world on His shoulders. But knowing all that, He still gave Himself up willingly. And as the whip fell, as the crown of thorns dug into His scalp, as the nails were driven through His wrists, as a hail of insults flew, as He lost sight of His own Father . . . He could have put a stop to it at any time. He could have called legions of angels to His aid (Matthew 26:53), and who knows what He could have done Himself. Going to the cross was not one single choice. It was a choice He made moment by painful moment–again and again and again:

YES.

For you, yes.

“For the joy set before him he endured the cross.” What kind of joy would keep the Son of God nailed to a wooden cross? What kind of joy would fuel His walk up the hill of death? What kind of joy would He hold inside though every nerve screamed for relief and every crevice of His heart reached for a Father He couldn’t see through the darkness?

I’ll tell you what kind of joy. It was the joy of redeeming you.

The possibility of bringing you home, of building a bridge across a chasm you could never cross, of wiping the dirt off His precious child’s face and crowning you royalty: that is what brought Jesus joy.

You are worth the cross.

God said so. His Son showed you in a way more powerful than anyone ever could: you’re worth it. And I sincerely hope that you and I let Him convince us that’s true. We all struggle with feelings of unworthiness, of thinking we’re not good enough. And honestly, our behavior isn’t good enough. Our thoughts and attitudes and actions aren’t good enough, and that’s why Jesus had to die.

But don’t for a minute feel guilty because of that. Those burdens aren’t yours to carry anymore. Because through all of the sin, all of the mess-ups and brokenness of humanity, He saw who we are.

His.

And by the very nature of being His, we are worth it. You are worth it.

Happy Easter, dear friends! He is risen!

(I’ll leave you with this beautiful Easter medley by Anthem Lights.)

Prince of Peace

For a child is born to us,
a son is given to us.
The government will rest on his shoulders.
And he will be called:
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
Isaiah 9:6
Prince of Peace. What a beautiful name. It is a sound of hope when calamity strikes us or busyness unravels us or hardship grinds us down.
Wonderful Counselor. Mighty God. Everlasting Father. Prince of Peace. To me, these names paint a picture of the enormity of Christmas.
One whose perfect plans and infinitely wise counsel are met with awe. A champion God, glorious in His strength. A loving Father so ancient He has no beginning, and so eternal He has no end. A Prince of complete and utter peace.
All of this was wrapped up in a squalling infant boy thrust into a cold and broken world. All of this majesty, all of this strength, all of this infinity . . . confined within human flesh, a vulnerable baby completely dependent on his teenaged mother. Mighty God. Everlasting Father.
Every time I pause and let the weight of it sink in, I can hardly fathom why He would do such a thing. It’s then I sense His heartbeat, and it’s there I find His answer.

For me. For us.

It was for us He came. For these glorious, incredible, imageo Deo–made in the image of God–creatures. For these broken, lost, fallen human beings. He entered our world because of love, to accomplish one purpose: to bring us peace.
The original Hebrew word is shalom, and it’s used 239 times throughout the Bible. The English word, peace, doesn’t even begin to convey the depth of its meaning. This shalom speaks of wholeness, soundness, and well-being. Completeness in number, safety and soundness in body, health, prosperity, quiet, tranquility, contentment. Peace in relationships. Peace from war. Peace with God.
We were cut off from this shalom, struggling to recreate it or achieve it or be worthy of it. Locked into a covenant of law that promised us shalom only if we could live up to its impossible standards. Then Jesus came to fulfill the law and restore us to this all-consuming peace, this rightness with Himself.
Shalom dawned on the first Christmas day, and it was brought to full light on the day this crucified Savior returned to life.
My Prince of Peace came to fill me with shalom. Completeness, soundness, absolute rightness. A quiet strength inside that knows that no matter the storm, I am anchored in Him. A contentment welling from within, unthreatened by outside circumstances. A haven found in the shadow of His wings, in the shelter of His love.
In Him, shattered hearts are made whole. Dead soil springs up with new life. Old coals kindle with fresh flames. Peace reigns.

This Christmas, may the Prince of Peace fill you to the brim with shalom. Merry Christmas, my friends!

Yesterday’s Bread

Life can be dry sometimes, admit it. Sometimes we let our passion die down to embers. All that’s left is dust and ashes and maybe a barely-surviving coal or two, and so we trudge onwards in the dark, wishing for brighter times.

Sometimes that doesn’t just describe our life, but our relationship with God.

I’ve been there more times than I care to admit. I’ve heard all the trite phrases about being sold out, on fire, all in. Those are nice when you’re feeling sold out, on fire, and all in. Not so much when the emotions wave goodbye, and you feel neutral or depressed or angry or tired or scared.

Maybe you’ve heard this one too: passion isn’t an emotion, it’s a choice. It’s an oft-used phrase, at least in my circles, and though it may be clichéd, it’s absolutely true. You can have passionate emotions (there’s nothing wrong with that–I love feeling passionate about something) but if that’s as deep as the passion runs, it doesn’t take much to send it crashing down.

Passion is a choice.

And sometimes you’ll have to fight against every ounce of your current feelings to make that choice. Sometimes you don’t feel terribly enthusiastic about someone or something, but you choose to value them anyway. You choose to put energy into building that relationship or pursuing that project. The awesome thing about making that choice, is that if you keep making it and keep making it and keep making it . . . the feelings of passion will often follow.
Revelation 3:16 in The Message version says, “You’re not cold, you’re not hot–far better to be cold or hot! You’re stale. You’re stagnant. You make me want to vomit.”
When I’m stale and stagnant, I usually want to vomit, too. Being stagnant sucks. No growth, no movement, no passion–it makes me feel gross. I find in those times, I look back longingly at seasons in my life when I was passionate. I wish I could extract the feeling of blazing enthusiasm out of the past and inject it into my present. I wish I could return to those times.
Perhaps you’ve been there too, or maybe you’re there right now, longing for that old spark.
Guess what? It doesn’t work that way.
And that’s okay.
You probably know the story of Exodus–in one of the most epic exits in all of history, Moses leads his people out of slavery in Egypt and heads for the Promised Land. But in chapter 16, we find the Israelites struggling through the wilderness with nothing to eat. It is then that God provides manna, bread from heaven that covered the ground of their encampment each morning. But He instructs them to gather only what they need for today, to keep nothing for the next day.
If I were in their situation, in the middle of a desert where food is scarce, and I saw the ground blanketed in bread, I would probably want to save a few extra snacks for the road. Who knows when food will be available again, right? Obviously some of the Israelites thought the same, because a few of them kept extra manna. And overnight, it became wormy, smelly, rancid. Completely inedible.
I find that’s a striking picture of what happens with us. You might have had a mountaintop experience, a spiritual high, a time when you felt deeply connected to God. I’ve experienced that, and if you have as well, that’s amazing. But when life gets hard or boring, and those feelings aren’t there anymore, you wish you could somehow go back to that. Yet you can’t.

You can’t feed on yesterday’s bread.

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You can’t expect to be nourished by the time you had with God last year, last week, or even yesterday. That food, so to speak, was for that day. It’s like if I eat a five course meal on Monday and think that I won’t need to eat for another week. I’m going to be hungry on Tuesday, no matter how much I ate on Monday. The same is true for our spiritual lives.
I used to think that was depressing, until I realized I don’t even need yesterday’s bread. There’s a feast spread before me today. Day after day after day, it’s like God scatters fresh manna across the ground, there for the taking.
Every day I can choose to gather fresh inspiration and nourishment for my heart. Every day I can choose passion. I can choose to dig in, to be enthusiastic, and to make another connection with my Father.
Do I make that choice every day? Nope. Some days I huddle in my tent, nibbling on rotten bread. Some days I see the manna covering the ground like snow, and I don’t lift a finger to fill my jar. But those choices, too, belong to yesterday.
Today really is a new day. I challenge myself, and I challenge you: gather fresh bread.