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2018 Recap // 2019 Goals

A crisp new morning. The wide open feeling of new potential. This is January–or rather, it’s my idealized January. At this time of year, I find myself reflecting on what the past 365 days have been like and where I hope to go in the next 365. It’s definitely been a journey.

At the beginning of 2018, I slowed down and took a different approach to goal-setting. You can read about it here: What Lies on the Horizon. Today let’s look at those goals and see if I hit them.

2018 Goals

Organize my beta readers’ feedback on The Brightest Thread. Check! It was one whale of a job, but I did manage to wrangle all the feedback into one place and took an objective look at the critiques. (And smiled at the fangirly comments, let’s be honest.)

Try my hand at flash fiction and submit to a magazine. What do you know, I managed that too! I wrote a few flash fics, and Dead Magic was accepted by Havok. Details coming VERY soon!

Edit The Brightest Thread. I made progress on that front, for sure. The beginning of the novel gave me a hard time (how dare it), but the first 22,000 words are now in pretty good shape. I think. It’s been a while since I looked at it, thanks to college.

Start querying literary agents. Nope, I didn’t make it that far, since I didn’t finish editing TBT.

Attend Realm Makers in St. Louis and pitch TBT again there. I did make it to Realm Makers for the second time and pitched twice, with promising results. I’m excited to pursue that in the future.



Finish The Creative Way course. Ahahaha . . . no. This was on my list of goals last year too, and I worked through even fewer lessons in 2018 than I did in 2017. College swallowed my LIFE.


Get my secret project off the ground. Aside from brainstorming, I made no progress here either. See the above reason.


Spiff up the blog. Again, nope.


Maybe plan my next novel? Nuh-uh. You know the drill by now. #collegelife

Three and a half achieved out of nine.

A couple years ago, that might have made me depressed. But now? I can smile, nod, and turn my face toward the new year. Because I know that list of goals doesn’t paint the whole picture. There were more important things I wanted out of 2018, bigger wins to achieve. Most of them can’t be quantified.

I took more time for people. I noticed a marked difference in how I treated time spent with family and friends. Not that I’m oh-so-generous now, but I’ve become a little more willing, a little more able to shut up my inner critic when it wants to yak about the looming to-do list. The people in my life mean more than getting that blog post up in time or editing another chapter.

I carved out time to read and recharge. I skidded too close to burnout in 2017 and 2016, so with college ramping up this year, I knew it was even more crucial to stay rested. Again, I wasn’t perfect at this, but there were many, many occasions I made the decision to pick up a book instead of a task in my free time. Sure, there were weeks in summer when I went full-steam ahead in editing my novel, and most definitely times during the school months that I worked my fingers to the bone. BUT. Overall, I took steps to nurture my mental health, and now I’m thanking myself for it.
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Most importantly, I grew closer to God and forged a new devotional habit. Recently, I reread the What Lies on the Horizon post from last January . . . and it almost made me cry. Many of those words had faded from memory since writing them down, including this thought:

“What I know right now is that every time I have hungered for more of God and cried out for a deeper knowing of Him, He has responded. And every time, all it took was asking… and then putting one foot in front of the other with my eyes open for an answer. Another thing I know right now is that I miss digging into the Word.” [Jan. 2018]

Since writing that, I started a contemplative Bible-reading plan–and kept up with it all year. Coming from a 2017 of very sporadic times spent with God, that’s huge for me.

And when I look back at all the things God has whispered to my heart in 2018, I am moved by how kind and wise He is. All year, He encouraged me to rest, to accept grace, to trust Him. To do everything WITH Him. This was made especially clear at Realm Makers, where author Allen Arnold taught a class called Chaos and Creativity.

Books I read, people I talked to, messages from church I listened to, songs I heard . . they wove together into a beautiful melody threaded through the year, snagging my wandering attention when I strayed too far.
(And on the more superficial side of things, I finished two semesters of business college, had Mirrors Never Lie place as a finalist in Five Poisoned Apples, and read 50 books.)
I’m proud of 2018.
But now it’s time to look to the new year.

2019 Goals

Continue my devotional habit. But more than just continuing, I want to build more thought, study, and variety into it as time goes on.

Give myself more grace. This one goes without explanation.

Take better care of myself. This includes getting the right amount of sleep, being intentional about unplugging, and making space for just being still.

Graduate college and get a great job. I can’t wait! As much as I grumble about college (which is something else I need to work on), it really has been a valuable experience. One of these days I’ll share some survival tips for fellow students. Anyway, before I graduate in April, I’ll be looking for the kind of job that will make me excited to get up in the morning.

Finish editing The Brightest Thread. I’m so looking forward to brushing up this darling child of mine . . .

Send TBT to a literary agent. . . . And I’m looking forward to engaging in some serious querying!
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Attend Realm Makers for the third time. It’s my tentative plan, and I’m hoping it’ll fit in the budget again this summer.
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Actually finish The Creative Way writing course by Ted Dekker. Because there’s cool stuff to learn and it’s about time I finish what I started an embarrassingly long time ago.

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Move Adventure Awaits to a self-hosted website. You heard it here first, folks! Rather than simply spruce up the blog, I’m seriously contemplating moving to a bona-fide website later this year. I foresee many inquiries being sent to the more technologically-minded . . .

Bring that secret project into existence. And that’s all I’ll say about that. *wink*

I do have a handful of “bonus goals,” smaller and easier-to-achieve things that would be nice to accomplish, but not absolutely imperative. Things like purging my room, purchasing a new laptop, reading another 50 books (including my nonfiction TBR stack), even getting a personal blender with which to make smoothies. But I think ten major goals are quite enough for now, thank you!

2019 holds some big changes, that much is certain. I’m eagerly anticipating a change of season, from full-time student to . . . well, full-time something else, and also the chance to revive my writing life. In the meantime, I hope to practice grace for myself and others–and face the future with a peaceful heart.

What are you looking forward to this year, fellow questers?

Fantasy in My Veins (#SilmAwards2017)

Well, my friends, the 2017 SilmAwards have come to a glorious and bittersweet end. If you missed any of the presentations, I finally got around to putting a list at the end of my own presentation post, which you can find HERE. Thanks for joining us in this epic event!

Now, to wind it all down on the very birthday of Lord of the Rings, we’re throwing a party to celebrate Tolkien and all things fantasy! Feel free to join in with your own blog post or update on Facebook/Twitter/Instagram/whatever, using #SilmAwards2017. The more the merrier, of course. (And one side of me is chuffed as chips that this coincides with Realm Makers–how appropriate!)

Last year I presented a small smorgasbord of Lord of the Rings stuff–quotes, pictures, musings on what the books and movies and soundtracks mean to me, etc. Today I wish to broaden my view with a reflection on my reading history, and fantasy as a genre.

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picture via Pinterest, graphics my own

Fantasy is my literary homeland.

See, I grew up in a family that treasured stories. My parents read to me copiously as a child. I vividly remember afternoons snuggled up next to my mom with a picture book, prodding her awake and asking her to reread pages when she grew sleepy and began slurring the words I’d memorized . . . evenings gathered around the kitchen table to eat night snack with my siblings while my father read a storybook of our choice . . . trips to the library every three weeks, during which my family of six would haul out 60-70 books at a time . . . lonely bus rides during my earliest elementary school years (prior to homeschooling) when I would bury my nose in a book and ignore the noisy teenagers in the back seats . . . I even recall bedtimes as a teenager, when my dad read a chapter of a novel to me every night just for old time’s sake.

I remember learning to read. I remember my parents telling me that books were like picture windows. When one learns how to read, one can go through those windows into another place.

I remember grade one, when a beloved teacher taught me the bare bones of crafting a story: beginning, middle, and end. She unlocked the first of many doors into a world of making my own magic.

I was hooked.

The moment I mastered beginner readers with stories like “The cat sat on the mat,” I reached for bigger books with longer sentences. From there I jumped to novels like Anne of Green Gables, which was marvellously long and dense for such a young mind, and full of words I didn’t yet understand. As I outgrew animal stories about puppies and horses, I discovered the mystery genre. The Boxcar Children, Jigsaw Jones, Nancy Drew, and Mandy Shaw books held me in suspense and piqued my fascination with the unknown, with secrets to be discovered and trails to be followed.

But the moment a young classmate recommended The Chronicles of Narnia to me was the moment that changed the course of my reading years. I distinctly remember climbing to the second floor of my school library and hunting down the name C.S. Lewis. That day I went home with a copy of The Magician’s Nephew, and I was utterly enchanted.

I was rather young at the time, perhaps eight years old. My parents were wise enough to put the rest of the series, which was a wee bit over my head, on hold for when I turned ten. Yet another clear memory: the day they put a massive tome containing all seven Narnia books in my hands.

There was no looking back. I had found a world that entranced me, inspired me, kept me captive and set me free all at once. The idea that another world might be as close as the next wardrobe nestled somewhere deep inside my heart. Here was a genre that deepened my understanding of reality by stretching my vision into realms beyond my own. Here was a genre that strengthened my hands with the courage of a knight and filled my heart with the compassion of a hero. A genre that allowed me to soar on dragon’s wings.

Thereafter followed several years of testing my mother’s patience every single time we visited the library. I very quickly exhausted their supply of age-appropriate fantasy, plagued my mother with cries of “I have nothing to read!” and subsequently turned down every thoughtful suggestion she made that fell outside the realm of my beloved fantasy. (God bless Mom.) She eventually managed to help me stretch my horizons, and I found enjoyment in a collection of other genres as well.

Older horse stories took me to Thoroughbred races and equestrian shows. Frank Peretti took me to wild jungles with the Cooper family. Melody Carlson immersed me in the elitist ranks of drama-loving high school girls. Countless other authors introduced me to all sorts of wonderful things.

But fantasy remained my One True Love. From the beginning of my teenage years, Bryan Davis and Wayne Thomas Batson pulled me into worlds of dragons, slayers, quests, and swords. More recently, authors like Anne Elisabeth Stengl have painted heart-rending images in my mind’s eye of love and loss and beauty all wrapped up in another realm. And so many other authors in between have done the same.

I’m thankful for all the genres I’ve read, no doubt. But fantasy is where I feel most at home. Fantasy is often where I experience the greatest joys and deepest sorrows as a reader. It’s where my imagination takes flight. And most importantly, it’s where I see facets of the real Author’s character the clearest.

pictured above: The Chronicles of Narnia, C.S. Lewis // Liberator, Bryan Davis //
The Hobbit, J.R.R. Tolkien // Halt’s Peril, John Flanagan // The Door Within,
Wayne Thomas Batson // Heartless, Anne Elisabeth Stengl // The Bones of Makaidos,
Bryan Davis // White, Ted Dekker // The Return of the King, J.R.R. Tolkien //
Prophet, R.J. Larson // Raven’s Ladder, Jeffrey Overstreet

In Aslan of The Chronicles of Narnia, I witness His sacrificial love.

In King Eliam of The Door Within, I see His blinding glory.

In the actions of Billy, Bonnie, Professor Hamilton, Sapphira, and their friends from the world of Dragons in Our Midst, I see what great warriors of the faith are capable of doing.

In the Prince of Farthestshore of Tales of Goldstone Wood, I see my Savior wooing me to His side, and in the song of the wood thrush I hear Him calling me to His path.

In the waters of Elyon from the Circle quartet, I find transformative joy.

In the Keeper of the Auralia Thread, I sense His mystery.

In the courage of hobbits, the strength of men, the wisdom of elves, and the determination of dwarves in Lord of the Rings, I see treasure hidden in jars of clay. I see what happens to the small and insignificant when committed to the hands of One much greater.

I escape into fantasy not to avoid the trials of this life here on earth, but to find wells of inspiration that bolster my faith to face them.

And that, my friends, is why I call fantasy my homeland. These books and more echo the cry of my heart for something beyond this world, for something greater than myself, for wonders hidden beneath what my eyes can see–and to all those desires, I hear my Father answering yes, yes, yes.

Yes, the unseen is more real than the seen. Yes, I AM greater than you yet know. Yes, I have hidden jewels of wonder in the crevices of your days, and the final treasure trove awaits beyond the veil of this life. Yes, I am here. Yes, I am present. Yes, I care. Yes, I am the One who compels you to a quest of your own, the One who charts your best path, the One who infuses your weary limbs with strength, the One who promises a crown to all those who stay the course.

Perhaps I stray too close to the ditch of exaggeration, but I think not. God knows what best speaks to our hearts, and I think He finds pleasure in my delight over the fictional worlds I travel. Whatever mouthpiece will speak the loudest, the clearest, is different from person to person. But as for me, the far-flung reach of fantasy is one of the greatest calls I hear.


It’s a call I have listened to for years, and it is one I shall return to again and again for years to come. For me, fantasy is woven into the song of my Father.

A Glimmer of Hope (Happy Birthday, LOTR!)

We have come to the end of the very first Silmarillion Awards, my friends, and what fun it has been! We shared our enjoyment of beloved fantasy characters, creatures, and objects with other readers . . . we perked up our ears when books we have yet to read were enthusiastically discussed . . . we saw the most popular nominees and, with hearts splitting from multiple loyalties, voted for our favorites . . . we waited with bated breath as the winners were announced one by one . . . and at last, we celebrated!



This is sadly my only Middle Earth book.
I needs more, precious!
Fantasy is the genre that inspires perhaps the most loyalty in its readers. Fall in love with a fantasy world, and there’s no going back.
And one of the authors who played a great part in shaping the genre–in making fantasy what it is today–was J.R.R. Tolkien. Just think of how many fantasy book covers say, “Fans of Lord of the Rings and [fill in the blank] will love [this book].” Think of how anytime someone writes about elves, they’re compared to Tolkien’s elves. When someone writes about dwarves, about wizards, about fantastical creatures and epic battles and death-defying quests–it’s very often held up to the standard of Tolkien.

In honor of him, and of everything related to Middle Earth, a celebration is taking place across the blogosphere this weekend. That’s right: we’re having a Tolkien Party!

As I was trying to figure out just where to go with this post, I decided to smash all my ideas together. Because parties are fun and chaotic that way. So. On today’s itinerary, we have . . .

  • Which LOTR character are you? (link to a quiz)
  • A selection of some of my favorite LOTR and The Hobbit quotes
  • A few of my favorite pieces of music from the soundtracks
  • A tribute to LOTR

Which Lord of the Rings character are you?

I admit, I can’t get enough of personality quizzes, and they’re especially fun when they relate to book or movie characters! Recently I took THIS ONE and wound up being Gandalf.

I don’t know how accurate it is, but I can’t complain about the results! (Eccentric: check. Silly: check. Warmhearted: check. Shrewd and powerful tactician? I have no clue. Bwahaha, I just might be awesome at being evil too, who knows?)
If you take the quiz, let me know which character you get! My brother, curiously, was pegged as Gimli. Both my sisters were Sam, and my mom was Merry. (According to the little blurb, she’s a prankster–since when?)
I also saw this Meyers-Briggs personality chart for LOTR characters. According to this, I’m Galadriel.
Sorry it’s so hard to read. This is as big as I could make it.

Book Quotes

“Do you mean to wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?” ~Gandalf, The Hobbit

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Now it is a strange thing, but things that are good to have and days that are good to spend are soon told about, and not much to listen to; while things that are uncomfortable, palpitating, and even gruesome, may make a good tale, and take a deal of telling anyway. ~The Hobbit

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“Go back?” he thought. “No good at all! Go sideways? Impossible! Go forward? Only thing to do! On we go!” So up he got, and trotted along with his little sword held in front of him and one hand feeling the wall, and his heart all of a pitter patter. ~Bilbo, The Hobbit
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All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
~The Fellowship of the Ring


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“It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not.” ~Gandalf, The Fellowship of the Ring
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“It would be the death of you to come with me, Sam,” said Frodo, “and I could not have borne that.”
“Not as certain as being left behind,” said Sam.
“But I am going to Mordor.”
“I know that well enough, Mr. Frodo. Of course you are. And I’m coming with you.” ~Frodo and Sam, The Fellowship of the Ring
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“I would cut off your head, beard and all, Master Dwarf, if it stood but a little higher from the ground,” said Eomer. ~The Two Towers
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“I had forgotten that,” said Eomer. “It is hard to be sure of anything among so many marvels. The world is all grown strange. Elf and Dwarf in company walk in our daily fields; and folk speak with the Lady of the Wood and yet live; and the Sword comes back to war that was broken in the long ages ere the fathers of our fathers rode into the Mark! How shall a man judge what to do in such times?”
“As he ever has judged,” said Aragorn. “Good and ill have not changed since yesteryear; nor are they one thing among Elves and Dwarves and another among Men. It is a man’s part to discern them, as much in the Golden Wood as in his own house.” ~Eomer and Aragorn, The Two Towers
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“It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end . . . because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing . . . this shadow. Even darkness must pass.” ~Sam, The Two Towers
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“As I have begun, so I will go on. We come now to the very brink, where hope and despair are akin. To waver is to fall.” ~Aragorn, The Return of the King
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“What do you fear, lady?” he asked.
“A cage,” she said. “To stay behind bars, until use and old age accept them, and all chance of doing great deeds is gone beyond recall or desire.” ~Aragorn and Eowyn, The Return of the King
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“. . . And so a great evil of this world will be removed. Other evils there are that may come; for Sauron himself is but a servant or emissary. Yet it is not our part to master all the tides of the world, but to do what is in us for the succour of those years wherein we are set, uprooting the evil in the fields that we know, so that those who live after may have clean earth to till. What weather they shall have is not ours to rule.” ~Gandalf, The Return of the King

Soundtracks

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The soundtracks of the LOTR and Hobbit movies are some of my all-time favorites. By turns sweeping and majestic, dark and sinister, heartrending and melancholy, and soft and beautiful, they encompass so very many emotions. I was going to share a few of my favorite tracks, but there’s too many, so I’ll include one from each of the six movies. These would be among my most beloved tracks, but the list is certainly not exhaustive. (Links lead to YouTube.)
From An Unexpected Journey: The Adventure Begins
From The Desolation of Smaug: Thrice Welcome
From The Battle of the Five Armies: Mithril
From The Fellowship of the Ring: Concerning Hobbits
From The Two Towers: Riders of Rohan
From The Return of the King: The Steward of Gondor
And there are so many more! I love Smaug’s exotic theme and the dark choral parts of the Black Riders’ theme. I love the swelling heroism of the Fellowship’s theme. I love all the elven music. I love the moments of peril sung by frantic violins and low, bellowing brass. I love the soft flutes painting a picture of beauty. I love the poignant strings, the gorgeous vocals, the relentless percussion, the whistles that hearken back to home. I love “I See Fire,” “The Last Goodbye,” and “May It Be.” I LOVE IT ALL.
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And lastly, a tribute . . .

I was sixteen (almost seventeen), starting grade eleven, when I read The Fellowship of the Ring. The following spring, I read The Two Towers. And then, at seventeen-almost-eighteen, I read The Return of the King. Sometime prior to all this, before I started keeping record of my books, I read The Hobbit. So I was a lot older than many LOTR fans who picked up the books during their childhood, but they impacted me nevertheless.
With the bold brushstrokes only Tolkien could paint, I witnessed the strain of Frodo’s burden, the courage of hobbits, the wisdom of wizards, the corruption of power, the loyalty of truest friends, and the light of hope. I followed the Fellowship across mountain and plain, through forest and over river, to a place of darkest despair–and then to victory. I saw the small and weak press on in the face of overwhelming evil–and win. I saw a best friend seldom thanked for his steadfastness, and stay faithful regardless. I saw races once at odds with each other become allies and brothers-in-arms. I saw a man take up the kingship he was destined for, but not without pain and heartache.
In Middle Earth, I saw a star of hope gleam bright in a sea of darkness. And that is why I love LOTR. Yes, I love the worldbuilding, the humor, the depth of character, the spectrum of emotion, the epic scope, and the lofty themes. But I treasure the picture of hope presented in these books the most.
I recently watched the LOTR movies for the first time, and though they differ somewhat from the books, they stirred up the same emotions all afresh.
My heartfelt thanks goes to Tolkien today, on the 62nd birthday of Lord of the Rings. Thank you for inspiring so many readers in such a profound and memorable way!
(And now I’m longing to reread the books. And re-watch the movies. And play all the soundtracks all at once. But mostly to reread the books.)
Anyway, if you’d like to participate in this big LOTR birthday celebration, please do! We’d love to see your post, whether it’s on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, your blog, or any other platform. Use #silmawards2016 to make it easy to find. Then go to Jenelle’s blog to add your link to the fancy little link-up. And be sure to check out other posts, too–there are lots of awesome articles and tributes and even trivia being shared. Huzzah for Middle Earth!

So tell me, dear questers, what LOTR means to you! Do you remember when you first read it? How as it impacted you? (And if you took the quiz or used the personality chart, which character are you?)